Monday 26 September 2011

Apocalypse please.

Well humans and non humans, as last blog was a little jabbery (yeah it's a word) on the whole Fade/Fae thing, which I basically did just for a friend to explain the concept as they had never played Dragon age. I don't even know if they read it as they still had no clue so they might have bought it. I'm not good at explaining things I babble on about a five minute thing for ages. I'm like a slightly more human, english and less magic Merril.

So yeah this past couple weeks have been long in so many ways. Last week myself and john were employed by our temp agency (along with a million people) making these Xmas decorations for shop displays in Next. So that meant I was on my feet for 46 hours, which my body did not like at all and it has decided to punish me by giving me a cold. It was quite funny last week when trying to read things and having a convosation (IM'ing not the talking kind) because I would try and read something and my eyes would not focus they would drift away from the sentence I was reading so that made life hard and when I was talking to people online I had to check that what I was wrote was A)Spelt correctly B) Made sense and C) Was in English, and also I would forget what I had just said so I would have to re read it again and again, also making sure what I was saying wasn't rude or anything.

I've been having alot of LRP dreams lately, some of them are vague and some are really good, I think my last one was at BC and I was trying to convince one of my friends to come out adventure with me and I believe one of my excuses was that they could help me hobble around between fights as I had just lost my leg. I don't  know if I was successful or not, but dreams are like that, they either make you forget the good bits really easily or they linger with you and I get the latter alot. I also like/don't like the dreams where you can still feel a persons touch.

So I am once again in the catagory of "unemployed" I have been in this catagory for one day and J's parents are worried that we have no dreams and/or wishes for the future. I mean yes we do but at the moment there are no jobs that we are "qualified" to do in the forest and surrounding area, I can't really get anywhere unless john takes me or I take a bus, and the bus is a little hit and miss really, esp if I were to work in the early morning or late evening, becuase there are none. Also when buying/renting a house, it is bloody expensive to do, I mean its not jjust the mortage or the rent its all the bills and food as well, which is depressing to think about. For me, to get a basic job in a town or even a city (where there may be more jobs) I would have to live closer to said thing which I don't, my closest town consists of, supermarkets, charity shops, salons, pubs, hardware stores, then misc stores. All of which are not looking for people. Problem. I think ideally I would want to live in/near a major city, like Bristol, Gloucester or even London, but my lovely J is "allergic" to cities, he doesn't like them, its a bit of a hassle to even go to one for a day, let alone live in one. I mean I like the country and all but there is nothing here for the lost generation that have to rely on partners and buses. I just want to be independent, have my own space, my own money.

Facespace has once again had a facelift, the only bits that still bug me is the ticker tape updates that are in the top right hand corner, it is not  needed. And then they have changed the chat thing and now people who are either not online or have left a while ago appear on the lefthand side. I mean its there for people to talk to  people who are online, not people who ahve just left. Its like FB is laughing at me, then again..doesn't the whole world?

Hopefully, within the next few day I will be able to spend a bit of the tax refund I got on a mobile phone, but I bet due the "perks" of living in the forest I will never have signal, until I am in an area of a large populace. And then when I get paid for last week I am tempted to have a bit of a shop, it will only be to Gloucester, Bristol would be too far, too expensive and John would hate it even more because its a lot of walking.

Oh look its past 11, I should probably turn the laptop off, or J's mother will hover. I'm not even tired and I don't need more sleep just because I am ill. As Saturday proved being around friends made me feel a little better.

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